This post is probably going to take me hours to write. I know what I want to say but I don't know how to wrap my brain around it and put it down. Yesterday after I posted my fire my heart was sad. I was mad at myself for bragging that I built a fire. I know, sounds a little silly... but to me it was real. What I didn't post was that for every time I actually hit the logs with the ax I missed 6 times and that post chopping my back was sore. I started this blog 2 years ago for my parents because they only get to see my children about 3 times a year. Clearly I'm aware that a lot more people read it besides my parents. In fact, I'm not certain my parents even read it. So, what is my purpose? I read this article this morning by Tim Keller. It's about humility. Am I humble? Do I even have the ability to be humble? My heart is in a tangle this morning. I want to be real. I want to blog. I want to share things with y'all. I want to share life, ideas, grace, cheesy little tutorials... but what I don't want to do is "think of myself more highly than I ought." How do I do both? I don't know. Keller says "the problem is too big for practical solutions." Keller also says in his article "humility is only achieved as a byproduct of understanding, believing, and marveling in the gospel of grace. . . So let us preach grace till humility just starts to grow in us." Grace I get. It's what saves me. Sola fide! Do you know how freeing that can be; the realization that I completely fall short. Nothing that I can do or say can keep me from Him. Praise the Lord... and pass the tambourine! And let's marvel in His grace together this weekend!
No comments allowed today, sorry! Someone would probably say nice little
lies happy things like "you are humble!"